Things have been extremely busy lately and I haven't had the time to do any blogging. Summer time is here and when we have any free time, we enjoy the pool. Matthew is getting too big and it makes me sad that I don't have any babies anymore. (although, they will always be my babies) I have to tell you that in my life lately everything seems confusing. I know everyone knows what happened to my brother and what my family has been dealing with lately. I can't tell you the pain that is surrounding my family. I guess I needed to vent a little and figured you guys wouldn't mind. Duirng this time, people say that, in time, it will get better. I have to disagree with that these days because it has only gotten worse. We are broken right now and wonder when then pain will lessen. I miss Hank so much and it hurts me so bad that his girls won't jave him to grow old with. Life, I have learned, is just not fair. I wonder why things happen the way they do and I know we are not supposed to question "WHY" but that question lingers in mind all the time these days. Hank's oldest daughter asked me Sunday, "Why do we have to go to the cemetary for Father's Day and visit daddy?" I had to pause and really dig deep to come up with something to tell this innocent child looking at me with such hurt. I told her that we only go out to the cemetary to take flowers to daddy. We can talk to daddy all the time in our heart, any time and any place. We have to have a place that is designated for him and for others to go take flowers and talk to him. I told her to always remember that he never leaves her heart and whenever she needs to talk to him, he is right there. She also told me that she had planned his birthday party and all the details for it. His birthday is on August 17th and she wants to have a pool party for him with chocolate cupcakes with chocolate frosting on them. She had all the details planned for the party. I just find it so unfair that we have to continue on without him but for the sake of his girls, we have to make sure that he lives on. I know that I have taken up enough time venting and I appreciate it!!!! Thanks....... 
